As I sat down to eat breakfast this morning, I could not help but reflect on the wedding season I will officially be saying goodbye to tomorrow. I have learned so much about myself through the weddings I have photographed in 2011, and I cannot believe that it is wrapping up already! How do I feel about this? Bittersweet.
Now here is where I would like to be very honest …
This wedding season has not all been rainbows and butterflies. There has been some points throughout the season that have literally had me questioning if I was really cut out for the world of wedding photography. It was a constant battle for me to decide if this was something I truly wanted to focus on in my career as a photographer. However, every time I doubted myself, God would send me another wedding inquiry. I was always asking, “God, what are you doing to me?!”. Over the course of this year, God has continued to show me that being a wedding photographer is exactly what he wants me to do. I have witnessed some of the most beautiful moments because of the opportunities He has given me to document with my camera. I honestly think I would be a totally different person if God did not guide me into this path. It has completely changed me. I thought I always knew who I was growing up, but I would say that God has shown me who I really am in just the last couple of years.
That being said, I am so beyond blessed for the strength God has brought me during the really crummy points in my career and personal life. I used to be that person that thought it was possible to avoid problems because I wanted everything to go perfectly, but I now see that problems help us grow, become better people, and stronger servants of the Lord. Stress, trials, problems, whatever you define it as, molds us into the who we are, and to me . . . that is beautiful.
Thank you so much to those who have been a continued support throughout this journey. I look forward to the weddings I get to document in 2012!